SOME PEOPLE MAKE YOU WANNA BE THEM.

AND SOME PEOPLE MAKE YOU WANNA BE YOU.

page from Simon Critchley's book on Bowie

My chucks are still wet

but there are no more rainy days ahead,

hello world.

I'm back.

In my head

there's a war between all things unsaid

and all the good people turned bad

In my head

all the shiny shit turned blue

and everything I feel tastes new

I don't know what I am thinking

search every corner, turn the stones

I do remember what I looked like

but who I was seems to be gone

And I am not sure where I'm going

I don't recognize the streets

and the house that I grew up in

seems like a language I don't speak.

In my head

all the happy kids are sad

and all the good people turned bad.

We must have passed the point of of return without noticing 

last time I looked around I found myself next to you

now I seem to find myself within you.

So here we go again. 

Dear love, 

it's been a while, how have you been?

Ich möchte werden wie die ganz Geheimen:

Nicht auf der Stirne die Gedanken denken,

nur eine Sehnsucht reichen in den Reimen,

mit allen Blicken nur ein leises Keimen,

mit meinem Schweigen nur ein Schauern schenken.

Nicht mehr verraten und mich ganz verschanzen

und einsam bleiben; denn so tun die Ganzen:

Erst wenn, wie hingefällt von lichten Lanzen,

die laute Menge tief ins Knieen glitt,

dann heben sie die Herzen wie Monstranzen

aus ihrer Brust und segnen sie damit.

R.M.Rilke

"One of the biggest issues globally is that girls are not being valued outside of their
bodies. Their value is still found in their fertility, their sexuality, their ability to work
as labor. But they are not being seen for the value of their minds and what they can
bring in terms of ideas, the way men are seen."