There's no reality except the one contained within us.

Herman Hesse is such a badass.I am reading this book at the moment,"Demian" . There is so much simple truth in it, that I keep marking pages and lines.I am not even half through it and the book already looks like a crazy coloured mess. Anyway, what I want to say keeps me thinking. The following lines have been on my mind since I read them. I think in times where the influence of social networks like facebook and twitter on our everyday life is getting stronger ,we tend to lose the focus of whats real and what is not. I mean real like, true to yourself to your own opinion,to the things that YOU love and think. It's so easy to lose your focus between the tweets and listen to the voice of the "scene" instead to ones own.Tell me about it.


There is no reality except the one contained within us. That's why so many people live an unreal life. They take images outside them for reality and never allow the world within them to assert itself."

Hermann Hesse


Everything in life is art.What you do and how you do it. The way you love someone and how you dress. How you talk, your personality and your SMILE.What you believe in and ALL YOUR DREAMS.The way you drink your coffee and how you decorate your home.Your to do lists,the food you eat.How you party and how your writing looks.The way you wear your hair,the playlists you make and what you call them.And the way you feel.

Life is art.

There is no need, to be someone else, to play a role or to try to be something or someone different from who you are. You are your own piece of art and there is no one but you to decide how it should look. You don't even need to check how other pictures look, cause yours is just right the way you like have to find out what YOU like and what YOU want, maybe that's the most difficult part of it all. You can be whatever you wanna be, when you are true and honest to yourself.It's all within you, you just need to find it.


"All that is gold does not glitter,not all those who wander are lost."

J.R.R. Tolkien





I want to...

color your lips with my kisses

warm the skin on your neck with my breath

run my fingertips across your collarbone

press my lips against your pulse

whisper your name, again and again

drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart


I want you so bad. What's your name?


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the little things.

I don't know if there is anything better than a super cosy hooded bathrobe after 3 hours of training and a hot bath.


emotions are a hell of a drug.bittersweet suckers.


The last couple of days I felt exactly like this.....about pretty much everything. I am not a moody person and I am not over the top emotional or sensitive....that's why it's kind of a big deal for me to realise that emotions actually influence my life a lot.


So....I've been dealing with this one situation for some time now, it's been heavy on my mind the whole time, but I knew that I will figure it out by the time I am least I thought it would be easy as that.

Then this weekend I was overwhelmed by everything.....I couldn't sleep, I couldn't concentrate or focus, I didn't care about anything or anyone, I felt.....empty, like a zombie, emotions taking me over. lost. I just had to find a way out.


I believe that everything happens for a reason. The bank holiday weekend got me to the point where I had to make a decision. Get it over with. Move on. I think that's a good thing.

I won't complain about the whole situation cause I pretty much fucked it up myself in the first place, but I can't bring myself to regret the decisions that brought me here. I am what I am. 



"I believe that everything happens for a reason.

People change so that you can learn to let go,

things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right,

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe — 



Happy Easter. 

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I am off to PAris

Catch me if you can.A bientot.

"Someone comes into your life and half of you says you're nowhere near ready.

The other half says make him yours forever. I'm working on the forever part."

ich gruesse alle die ich kenne