pause #3


This is the day I've been waiting for, for almost two years. This is the moment we've
been working towards for the past two years. This is the beginning of bringing my dream
to life. This is it. This is here. This is now. In this moment.

one of these days.

I am sorry to interrupt

but today i just feel pretty fucked up

nothing is right though nothing goes wrong

feeling weak though looking strong

turning thoughts over, again and again

stop at the beginning , start at the end

can't comprehend, just can't seem to find

the thing that keeps messing with my mind

I even went to church, thought I'll give it a try

and God might light me up, if I just swing by...

I kinda knew it doesn't work that way, it can't

it's just that his fanclub I can't stand

and usually I trust in his spirit within and never worry

but anyway thats another story

I also tried to write it down, looked at it from every angle

but even that didn't help me to untangle

the thoughts that cause this melancholy

somewhere deep inside of me

well I think I just should go and see

the people who make me

the two or three

if that doesnt help to get me straight

I might as well go out and get layed

but whatever.... I already feel better, now that that's off my chest

at the end of the day the reason might not even matter

sometimes ....

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Dear love #4

But I bet you already knew that.

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learn to love the ride #2

Dear life, 

thank you for the immediate reply. 

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lass los. let go.



ich gruesse alle die ich kenne