emotions are a hell of a drug.bittersweet suckers.

 

The last couple of days I felt exactly like this.....about pretty much everything. I am not a moody person and I am not over the top emotional or sensitive....that's why it's kind of a big deal for me to realise that emotions actually influence my life a lot.

 

So....I've been dealing with this one situation for some time now, it's been heavy on my mind the whole time, but I knew that I will figure it out by the time I am ready....at least I thought it would be easy as that.

Then this weekend I was overwhelmed by everything.....I couldn't sleep, I couldn't concentrate or focus, I didn't care about anything or anyone, I felt.....empty, like a zombie, emotions taking me over. lost. I just had to find a way out.

 

I believe that everything happens for a reason. The bank holiday weekend got me to the point where I had to make a decision. Get it over with. Move on. I think that's a good thing.

I won't complain about the whole situation cause I pretty much fucked it up myself in the first place, but I can't bring myself to regret the decisions that brought me here. I am what I am. 

 

 


"I believe that everything happens for a reason.


People change so that you can learn to let go,


things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right,


you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself,


and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe — 

 

 

Happy Easter. 

ich gruesse alle die ich kenne